I’m currently in progress of doing my research to finish my Undergraduate Programme. I have like 2 weeks of holiday so they are like a panacea for me to get out of my hectic life. Wary lab schedule and my perturbing love life almost shift my focus from chasing the old dream to get into grad school to having a lifelong boyfriend willed to be a groom.
Enigmatic. But you couldn’t help hearing those lovey-dovey stuffs your friends was bragging about with their lovers. So I choose to dissappear for a while and concentrate on what I actually want to achieve. But it's not like I shun from the world. Nope.
Losing mom also had turn me intuitively into a precocious girl. Where I have to bear greater responsibility for my family. It’s arduous and tiring. I perceive that I’m no longer have more time to study and read in my bunk room, let alone wasting time with a guy. I need to think stuffs like: what we’re going to eat the next day; is there enough food stock in the fridge?; I need to get up earlier and prepare breakfast for my family; my father and brother didn’t like the food I cooked today so I better think about something else to eat for tomorrow, and etc. It’s frustrating. I have to be the one who thinks about all the stuffs and small details in my house while my father only gives the money. I’m not exaggerating but house chores (if you handle it alone) can hazardously outstrip your energy and fats beyond what you can bear. My clothes size has unexpectedly changes from M to S!
Then my neighbour intuitively sneer, “Being a woman is tiring, Indah.”
This is what my mother has been through. And if God wants me to do it, then He knows that I can.
So I’m like moving silently and sporadically trying to utilize any few minutes I have as effective as I can to study and prepare for grad school. Noo, not only grad school, but also research, thesis and my research project I am competing in with my cohort. All things need to be done at the same time! And yes!! This is what it feels like to be a housewife (not officially) as well as a college student!!!